Tuesday, September 22, 2009
selamat Hari raya people. hows raya ? great? i didnt really look forward to it like seriously. but when meeting up the loveleh cuzzy they somehow make me stupid day better . :) surprisingly i get some money from the makcik that loves me. heh and nyayi gave me also like twice ah. best kan. and im like so broke this end month which i end up not giving any money to the kids. such a shame. we didn't take loads of shots probably we're just busy dozzing off each house we go. this time everybody like too tired to to even take pictures unlike the previous years so active from the morning till end day sey. haiyah. i feel so shagged these days and dun forget to a big hi to my double chin. cause i feel sorry to myself for eating everything thats on the table and every house we went. i been eating non stop hit seeeeh.
latest, i got lumps growing on my gums and under my ear which it's connected to veins and half of my face is feeling so fucking numb. sgh been calling and i still got no time to speak to the doctor. what say you? actually i'm just running away from the true facts. excuse me for being so timid. cause if only u people were in my shoes knowing that having cancer is just a normal thing then i'll salute you for sure.
one by one. and i don't know what's next. and probably from here i'll get to see whos gonna be by myside whos gonna be here to make me strong and encourage me and so and sooooo. heh.
few people who i specially kept in heart and i can see whos here with me and who dun even bother.
anyways, good luck to me. i think this part, i can't be independent anymore. i thought i'm strong enough but i have prove myself wrong. such a disappointed. such a useless daughter.
excuse me i need to eat now. im like so fucking hungry.bye.
whisper from my subtle heart...
