Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Saat aku tertawa diatas semua
saat aku menangisi kesedihanku
aku ingin engkau selalu ada
aku ingin engkau aku kenang
Selama aku masih bisa bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan ku akan selalu memujamu
meski ku tak tahu lagi engkau ada dimana
Dengarkanlah aku merindukanmu
Saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya
Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku
Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang
Labels: YES YOU
whisper from my subtle heart...
11:47 PM
Monday, October 26, 2009
You probably know me for thousands of years already. But that doesn't mean that you understand me and that doesn't mean you know me that well. i might be the girl who loves attention. but that doesn't mean i give myself to people around anyhow.
whisper from my subtle heart...
12:10 AM
Friday, October 23, 2009
See, the only outlet who gets the award for the 1st,2nd & 3rd in-charge. hehe. well, i think we deserve it after all the shits we been through. i gotta say there's thousands of people and of course i was shaking while walking on the stage to take the award but lucky i didn't tumble and fall sey cause the pumps that im wearing doesnt belong to me and it's big and i got no choice but to borrow ana. many pictures more to come but this is the only visual i could put up here and the only one that i got cause i sucks lah for not bringing my own camera. shitsss.
and so how do i look? like a clown or something? haha. tell me about it lah blue stockings with black long top plus with a belt. ahaha ey but among all the other companys i think our's got the best uniform lah sey. feeewit. and how the boys there gatal gatal here and there. but i think young boys are silly but adorable. :P
and i am very sad when people around me keep on saying that i look tired and dehydration and which kak hera quickly asked me to get some sweet drinks before i fainted when i feel so fine lah. i have been eating just fruits, juices and VEGETABLES. yes aku da pandai ehk nak makan sayur sayuran. just taugeh i don't know why i just can't put em into my mouth. ahha. weird.
and yes people, this is my fav for now. :P
Labels: nothing impossible.
whisper from my subtle heart...
3:45 PM
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Have you ever wanted to talk but never really dared?
or missed that opportunity to tell them what you been wanting to say?
pretended that it doesnt hurt, and said that it's ok?
pretended that ure way too strong to let is past by u and let go of everything?
and spent each day wishing it'd all just go away?
acted how you're "supposed to"
so no one knew you cried .
And never let them see how you really felt inside?
forgive me, baby.
Labels: cry deeply silently
whisper from my subtle heart...
10:49 AM
Because it's hard to wait around for something that you know might not happen but it's even harder to give up, when you know it's everything you ever wanted.
i can't afford myself to be like this anymore.
whisper from my subtle heart...
1:04 AM
Saturday, October 17, 2009
life is about trusting our feelings and taking chances,
losing and finding happiness,
appreciating the memories and learning from the past.
whisper from my subtle heart...
2:28 AM
Thursday, October 15, 2009
tell me what is it i'm reaching for?
when we're through building memories i'll hold yesterday in my heart.
in my heart.
they can take tomorrow and the plans we made
they can take the music that we never play
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, they can never have yesterday
i thought our days would last forever
but it wasn't our destiny
cause in my mind we have so much time, but i was so wrong
no i can believe that
i can still find the strength in the moments we made
i'm looking back on yesterday
all the broken dreams take everything
but they can never have yesterday.
whisper from my subtle heart...
2:34 PM
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
all the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery
as they steal your best memories away
what if i was someone different in your only history?
would you feel the same
as i walk out the door
never to see your face again?
whisper from my subtle heart...
11:13 PM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
before you, my life was like a moonless night.
very dark, but there were stars- points of lights and reasons.
and then you shot across like a meteor.
suddenly everything was on fire. there were brilliance.there were beauty.
when you were gone when the meteor had to fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
i couldnt see the stars anymore.
and there was no reason for anything.
have you ever think that i'm a being that have feelings too?
whisper from my subtle heart...
3:36 PM
Thursday, October 8, 2009
and i'm out from the place that i would never want to be in again. one more surgery to go. and hopefuly this last one would be the last. cause i can't stand anymore pain. and whats more worrying about money. money can make me go crazy and how im worried till my head aches like hell. and how troublesome it is to keep on taking medicine every 6 hourly. so leceh nak mampos. tired of taking these medicine and when i skip em i'll be in pain so no choice but to keep on taking em. whats more when ill be busy working talking to customer and how it hurts like hell and taking like one idiot like dat. ahaha. so funny but what to do. i hope it wont be cancerous like what the doctor says. five percent of it, it is. scary isn't it? but so far so good. i can't be too confident cause Tuhan itu maha kaya. and he can change ur life in just split seconds . so now somehow somwhr ther i learned how frens come and go and how they stay by urside no matter what youre going tro. the good or the bad. and how you know who cares and who doesnt and how i do matter to em. bravo bravo people. heh.
thankies to my parents who been understanding of what im going tro now and also to my dearest sister syerah been waking up early for each sessions of my surgery and mingming for sacrificing her off days and skipping her class just to be there with me and also my baby tiara for being there sacrificing her beauty sleep after her shift . hehehe. and to e people who also never stop asking how am i doing. by asking is already a great tot of you people.akak tak lah sakit sangat kan. tapi thankies ehk. thankies tau.
i is a love you all. :)
whisper from my subtle heart...
3:15 PM
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
not going tro a good times now. i been worried for alot of things lately and am feeling so miserable now and hopefully it's not forever. please please let it be temporary. sometimes i feel like im cheating and lying to myself acting that's everything is fine and being happy and being that cheerful woman everyday. but at the end of the day, i feel like jumping out of the window. hidop takde makne siol. but i know god is testing me and i know i must go tro all these. i must and i have to no matter wad. and i think God has answered my prayer. and i know i got to scarifies wod i have promise him.
i don't know if whatever that have said by you was real.
Labels: baby would you save me?
whisper from my subtle heart...
10:03 PM
